What does it take to face death, stare into the darkest corners of humanity—and still find a way to laugh, love, and survive? This powerful and deeply personal memoir follows John, a seasoned homicide detective, as he navigates a life shaped by unimaginable extremes. From interviewing serial killers and confronting brutal crimes, to fighting his own battle with bowel cancer, John’s story is one of resilience, courage, and raw honesty. Told with both grit and unexpected humour, this book reveals the hidden realities behind policing, the emotional toll of witnessing humanity at its worst, and the silent struggles that follow long after the job is done. Alongside this is a deeply moving account of family strength—told through Lynette’s reflections—as they endure diagnosis, surgery, recovery, and the lasting impact of trauma. TV Documentaries Recently John has been approached by a number of TV production companies and has appeared in several documentaries focusing on some of the major crime incidents recalled in this book. Panorama ‘Shannon: The Mother of all Lies’ 4.12.2008 The Crossbow Cannibal Documentary  2025 Birkby House Fire: Murder: Point of Contact S01E03 The Birkby House Fire Murder Scene : The Incident Room Gurmail Singh murder 2025

What does it take to face death, stare into the darkest corners of humanity—and still find a way to laugh, love, and survive? This powerful and deeply personal memoir follows John, a seasoned homicide detective, as he navigates a life shaped by unimaginable extremes. From interviewing serial killers and confronting brutal crimes, to fighting his own battle with bowel cancer, John’s story is one of resilience, courage, and raw honesty. Told with both grit and unexpected humour, this book reveals the hidden realities behind policing, the emotional toll of witnessing humanity at its worst, and the silent struggles that follow long after the job is done. Alongside this is a deeply moving account of family strength—told through Lynette’s reflections—as they endure diagnosis, surgery, recovery, and the lasting impact of trauma. TV Documentaries Recently John has been approached by a number of TV production companies and has appeared in several documentaries focusing on some of the major crime incidents recalled in this book. Panorama ‘Shannon: The Mother of all Lies’ 4.12.2008 The Crossbow Cannibal Documentary  2025 Birkby House Fire: Murder: Point of Contact S01E03 The Birkby House Fire Murder Scene : The Incident Room Gurmail Singh murder 2025