Having been diagnosed with ADHD five years ago, the mist that had shrouded my life choices started lifting, to reveal a pattern through the mazes that had restrained and failed me. If only I had known earlier, I might have been able to have channelled my energies differently; but then this book would not exist. I started to reflect on the rollercoaster of my emotionally charged life. This poetry charts the ups and downs of managing iconic venues, including Madam Jo Jo's, Kensington Market, Cafe de Paris and the Rainbow Theatre during its phoenix-like rise from the ashes. This poetry was my mainstay, the tiller that kept me on course and kept my heart alive. My poems attest to my resilience, which I hope will resonate with you.